"About A Relationship"

Last night I gained another understanding about relationship. It is about when relationship doesn't go on the way we expected.

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When we stopped striving for a relationship, it doesn't mean that we stop loving and start hating that person, no matter who that person may be. The feeling may still be there, but we know that there is no point of carrying on so that we have to stop trying.

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We stopped not because of what that person had done to us that hurt us very deeply. But because we know that there will be no point of trying to strive for that relationship. It means that we admit to ourselves that sometimes things are just not the way we expect them to be. And someway, somehow, we just have to deal with that.

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It's not because we hate that person or because we didn't try. In fact, we did try, and we just didn't succeed. It may hurt us. But what can we expect? Truth may be painful sometimes. There are times when we have to tell ourselves to stop and to know the right time to quit.

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I experienced that for many times. The first one was nearly 9 years ago, on my third year of junior high. During those times, I consider that as something painful I don't want to remember. It still is, but at least now I can see that in a different point of view in order to earn a better understanding. Our relationship didn't work out.

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Well, maybe the factor is not only in him, but in me as well. I just realized that I don't hate him no matter what he had done to me and no matter what pain he had caused me. I just can't. In fact I still have feelings for this guy, but I just have to stop trying in order to hurt myself more.